5.07.2009

The Little Wars Within

The time I feel best during the day:
Right after a good workout.

The time I feel worst during the day:
Right before I work out.

The times I feel most accomplished:
When I've completed a big project (my books, a big website)

The times I feel least confident in myself:
Right before I start a big project (my books, a big website)

The times I feel most honest:
Right after I've told someone a truth I'd rather have lied about

The times I feel least honest:
That moment right before I open my mouth to tell someone something important, and I consider lying to them because I'd save myself drama both now and in the future

It's fucking annoying. But that's life, isn't it? A series of little battles. And even though our victories feel small at the time, it's the cumulative balance of the small things that lead up to a life well-lead. Everything, from choosing a salad over pizza for lunch to admitting you screwed up something big, stacks upon one another to make "you".

Be the "you" you want to be, and damn everyone and everything else, because at the end of the day, it's your face you see in the morning when you look in the mirror - and defeat is defined by those eyes looking back at you every day. Do good by them and everything else follows.